A year and a half ago I received the strong inner guidance that I should learn to speak Spanish. Even though I’ve always thought Spanish to be the most beautiful language in the world, it never occurred to me before to actually learn to speak it. But I’ve learned by now that when I get these types of strong prompts, it’s so wise to follow them, and so I started taking weekly classes.
Two weeks ago I got the request by a Colombian friend to give a workshop/concert/reading on the Miracles Universal platform and she asked me if I could do all of it in Spanish. My first thought was, ‘OMG NO!!!! OF COURSE, I CAN’T DO THAT, I’M SO NOT READY!!!!’ But, when I prayed about it I heard that I definitely was supposed to do it in Spanish.
Two weeks ago I got the request by a Colombian friend to give a workshop/concert/reading on the Miracles Universal platform and she asked me if I could do all of it in Spanish. My first thought was, ‘OMG NO!!!! OF COURSE, I CAN’T DO THAT, I’M SO NOT READY!!!!’ But, when I prayed about it I heard that I definitely was supposed to do it in Spanish.
The next two weeks I studied all day long and I just gave a two and a half-hour performance two days ago, completely in Spanish!
I’m sure I made more than a hundred mistakes in those two and a half hours. I must have misspelled words, used the wrong past tense, or messed up the grammar many times. But the point is that the message the Holy Spirit wanted to communicate through me came across big time! I got over 500 messages from people saying things like, “I felt the Holy Spirit’s love today more than I ever have in my life.”
It made me realize that it’s really not about doing something perfect in form. Perfection doesn’t lie in form. I think ‘perfection’ lies in being brave and willing enough to fully step back and let the Spirit lead the way, and to not try to interFEAR.
Perfectionism comes from the fear of not being good enough. But we are, we always are and always will be. And this doesn’t mean that you become lazy. I’ve been studying my ass off these past couple of weeks and feel inspired to continue to do so. But what inner guidance are we ignoring because we’re afraid that we’re not good enough yet?
Perfectionism comes from the fear of not being good enough. But we are, we always are and always will be. And this doesn’t mean that you become lazy. I’ve been studying my ass off these past couple of weeks and feel inspired to continue to do so. But what inner guidance are we ignoring because we’re afraid that we’re not good enough yet?
I say, let’s try to let go of perfectionism in form, and try to perfect our willingness to listen and follow our inner guidance, even if it scares us!
Much love,
Neda
